Well it's been quite a while since I've written. And I think it is long over due.
John and I moved down to Arizona right before Christmas. The move was kind of unexpected and unplanned, to an extent.
You see, life was going great! We just found out we were pregnant, loved our jobs, and put an offer on a house up in Morgan, UT, where John is originally from. We got out of our lease at our apartment and moved in with John's sister and her family until we closed on the house. We finally felt like REAL adults. Big changes were coming, and we were so excited.
Then things started to go south.
John's co-worker, who he dealt directly with at the clinic he worked at in Park City, started to be very difficult to work with. After a few weeks, John didn't feel like he could be himself at work, like he had been for the past 5 months. And then the phone calls started coming in from patients. One person called in to say he was offended that John mentioned he went on an LDS mission. One mother called in to complain about some, not necessarily advice, per say, but some things he knows about muscles that he had offered to her daughter who was planning on going into sports as a career, while performing an x-ray. Another person called to complain about who knows what. On top of that, this co-worker complained to their manager that she was offended about some things John had said (which were in no way inappropriate) that John had no idea made her upset. All of this happened within probably 2 weeks. And it was just too much for the clinic to handle.
So they let him go, the week before Thanksgiving. They were nice enough to give him a severance and pay our insurance through the end of December.
But I was absolutely devastated. Not only were my hormones completely out of whack, but so many HUGE things were happening and we couldn't do any of it without his income. On the way home from work that day after he told me, I was a mess. I was overcome with anger, fear, and panic. What were we going to do? We lost the house, we couldn't stay with John's sister long term, and we couldn't afford to move out on our own. I was having a baby and were going to lose insurance. And having a baby without insurance is very financially scary. The only good thing we had going for us, was the fact we were going through the temple in a few days. And even that I felt was up in the air because of the feelings I was feeling towards this individual.
I feel like John being let go stemmed from his co-worker. And I hated (yes, hated) her with every fiber of my being. See, she had been there for over 8 years. And then came along John. Someone that had things in line in his life, we were going through the temple, having a baby, buying a house, and she was just very unhappy. So she did all she could to get him to leave.
After a few days, I was tired of holding this hatred for this woman. The biggest lesson that this experience has taught me, has been to love my enemies. Even though I felt very wronged and targeted, I had something that she was missing. I'm a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. I was going through the temple in a few weeks to be sealed for time and all eternity to the love of my life. I was going to have an eternal family. And no obstacle or trial could take the truthfulness of that away.
So as hard as it was, I started to pray for her. I started to pray that her heart would be softened and that she would find happiness; that no matter what trials she was going through, she would be able to find peace and love. It's not my place to blame someone else for my trials. It sure is easy sometimes, but things happen for all sorts of reasons. Bad things happen to good people all the time. And they happen so that we can learn lessons. I have no idea what she is up to now, or who has taken John's place and if they are having any better success than John did. But I honestly hope that one day she will be happy.
Anywho, enough of that sob story.
December 23rd we packed up the truck and moved down to Mesa, AZ. I currently work for a lien service company in the valley and love it! The only down side about working there, is I see all the time how people are wronged by other people. Sometimes it's a little hard to take in, but such is life. John is currently working for my brother-in-law's dad doing landscaping, while he looks for other jobs as an x-ray tech [by the way, if you know of any place hiring an x-ray tech who is pretty freakin' sweet, let me know ;)]. Mo and Bear absolutely LOVE being here and being able to play outside in the warmth. Being close to my family is awesome, and starting to build a relationship with my niece is heartwarming.
It still hasn't quite sunk in that we are living here and are not just visiting or on vacation. I never thought I would be living back in Arizona. Ever. I was pretty set on staying in Utah for the rest of my life. I love it up there; being so close to nature and the mountains is something that I miss daily. So many times I think "Oh, I'm going to go here for lunch" or "I want to go to this store" and then I remember that those places are only up in Utah. Plus, it's kind of hard being away from John's family. They are just such an awesome bunch of people. I miss the family get-togethers and different events that they have. And it doesn't help that his nieces and nephews are beyond adorable and fun.
In the end, I know everything happens for a reason. I know John was let go for some reason, we just haven't found out yet. I'm happy to be back in my home town, and am very excited to see where life takes us from here!
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